I am limited, you may pity me, you do not know my joy, or talents, or potential.
You wonder how much I am aware of, I see that as well.
I am aware of much, whether you are happy or sad, or fearful.
Patient, or impatient, full of love and desire, or if you are just doing your duty where I am concerned.
I marvel at your frustrations, knowing mine to be far greater, as I cannot speak as clearly, sometimes hesitate, or lose my train of thought altogether.
You cannot conceive of my isolation, so complete it is, at times.
I do not gift you with clever conversation, or cute remarks to be laughed over, and repeated.
I do not give you answers to your everyday questions, or a response about my well-being, share my needs or comments about the world around me.
I do not give you rewards, as defined by the world’s standards, or great strides in development that you can credit yourself for.
I do not give you understanding, as you know it.
What I give you is so much more valuable. I give you instead, opportunities to discover the depth of your character, not mine.
The depth of your love, your commitment, your patience, and your abilities.
The opportunity to explore your spirit more deeply than you ever imagined possible.
I drive you further than you will ever go on your own, seeking answers to your many questions, creating questions with no answers.
I am the shadow you easily pass by.
You are a shadow, that passes by me.
You see the longing in my eyes, to get out of this chair, to stand up like others.
There is much you take for granted. I want the item at the store, but it is on the top shelf, out of my reach, but just a little stretch for you,
I want to go to the bathroom myself, in privacy.
I would like to pick up a spoon and feed myself breakfast, maybe make your breakfast sometimes.
I am dependent on you in these ways. I see your impatience, and I build a wall, so I can’t feel my pain. I wish I could help you, help me.
My gift to you, is to make you aware of your great fortune, your healthy back, hands, and legs, your ability to do for yourself.
Sometimes people do not notice me, I always notice them.
I am in this chair. You always look down at me. It hurts my neck to look up at your chest, LOL.
If you could step back a bit, that would help me see you, and also, maybe you can see me better.
I would be lying if I told you that I never feel envy, or desire to stand upright, to put one foot in front of the other, or to be independent.
If you’ll accept it, I will give you awareness, and an opportunity to see what I can offer. It is usually, all that I have.
I am here. I cannot walk. I am challenged with Cerebral Palsy, and all that goes with it, and that’s a lot.
Sometimes I am scared of being left once more, because it is very difficult to help me and love me at the same time.
I don’t learn easily, but I am curious, so there is a teacher in me that shows me the way.
What I do know, is infinite joy in simple things.
I am not burdened as you are, with the striving and conflicts of life.
My gift to you, is to grant you the freedom to enjoy things as a child, to teach you how much it means to me to have your arms around me, to give you love. I give you the gift of simplicity.
I am the shadow in front of you. If you try, you can see me.
I am here, your teacher, as you are mine.
If you will allow me, I will teach you what is really important in life.
I will give you, and teach you, unconditional love.
I give you my trust, and my dependency upon you.
I teach you about how very precious life is, and about not taking things for granted.
I teach you about forgetting your own needs and desires and dreams. I teach you how to give.
Most of all, I teach you, hope, faith, and love.
I am a shadow, you can see me if you slow down and look.
You will see, I love you unconditionally. I learned this in my chair.
A chair that is colorful, just as I want my world to be.
My chair is covered in duct tape. It has lights, and a bell. There is so much going on, you can barely see me. I wear a mask.
It makes you look. There is a lot going on, as there is in life.
This is why I do what I do.
I am a shadow with light, and love.
You can see me if you try, as I see you.
I’m going to tell everybody this who has a child with a disability
The world is a cruel place you’re Going to need your energy to battle the Munsters I am just turning 31 next month and believe me the healthcare system is not kind to disable people I am strong and have the willingness never to give up even the way people treat me in the community and Healthcare so I am going to tell you the same never give up on him the way my mother did show him the love and caring he needs so that when he becomes in adult he’s ready to battle just like I had to at a young age
PS this is why I do what I do to create awareness because people with disabilities should not have to be treated that way in any circumstancenever give up the fight